We had the good fortune of connecting with Kyle Waller and we’ve shared our conversation below.

Hi Kyle, what’s the most difficult decision you’ve ever had to make?
The most difficult decision I have ever had to make has been among the most rewarding: to travel to the depths of my soul through my Faith and discover why I did not love myself. In doing this, I realized the answers to my purpose for my time on the Earth, the true happiness to my life was never to be found traveling to the most popular or forlorn corners of the world. But rather, the answer to my purpose and the happiness of my existence lies within the Universe that is my soul. The decision, specifically, was to look in the mirror without the capacity for judgment against what I saw, the thoughts reflecting back at me. I asked myself: Why do I judge myself as I do? Where do my thoughts come from? When were they first created? In seeking the answers to myself, I went only through my Faith in Lord God and the Universe. What I discovered was that 90% of my anxiety, depression, indecision, lack of self-love and self-confidence, came from a singular moment that happened to me in Kindergarten. In becoming conscious of this moment, and loving myself here, the answers to my trauma came like a domino effect – leading to the awakening me writing these words today.

Alright, so let’s move onto what keeps you busy professionally?
Instead of my work in Emergency Management, or my passions as an author, I feel it is more so important for the reader to know about my journey thus far. Please allow some context: From the age of six, back in 2000, up until October of 2020, I lived in a state of no Faith, powerlessness, and severe depression. I could stand in the light of the sun and feel like the sun forgot to warm me up. I saw everyone as against me, becoming extremely distrustful of both myself and other humans. In time, this paranoia lead to me dividing myself from the world, I saw myself as unworthy of having another person to be with me in life, I saw myself as unworthy of life itself. It was impossible for me to spell the word “Happy.” As the pain deepened and no end was seeming in sight, I made the decision to end my life at the age of thirteen; the only thing that stopped me was a woman who acknowledged my existence and proved to me at the last moment that I wasn’t alone. I know there’s a lot of context missing there, but the substance was that everything was negative. I sought negativity in all things, doubted myself; I would create arguments and wild, negative visions in my mind which caused me to suffer in real life. I saw myself as an alien who could never be understood. Now, I wish to tell you about the Kyle writing this interview. The Kyle penning this interview bears no resemblance to the Kyle described above. The Kyle who’s writing this interview, I, wish to share what the end result has been since October of 2020. My obsession over finding a partner has been brought into alignment via seeking to fulfill my purpose in life. To this end, my purpose in life is to teach humans how to live. I have come to realize that we humans are so powerful, yet so many of us are not yet conscious of Real Faith and the power within us to make reality as we wish. So many of us humans live disconnected and disunified not only from our family and fellow humans but more so ourselves. Whereas before my spirit was riddled with fear, guilt, and alienation of myself from myself, it is now coming into a consciousness of unconditional love and peace, cultivated from within by my own Faith and power within myself. In short, I regret none of the trauma from my past; for all of it has laid the foundation for me to fulfill my purpose and love my life as is my fundamental right as a human being.

Any places to eat or things to do that you can share with our readers? If they have a friend visiting town, what are some spots they could take them to?
If there had to be ONE place I had to take my best friend, it would definitely be Spire 73, the tallest rooftop bar in the Western Hemisphere. The decadent wine and philosophical-inducing view of the city and surrounding desert would be more than enough for at least one of us to solve a personal riddle to the meaning and purpose of our lives here on the Earth. The coolness of the night’s influence upon our skin and consciousness, the twinkling lights of Humanity and the city below would be more than enough to convince us to enjoy a bottle or two of fine red wine.

The Shoutout series is all about recognizing that our success and where we are in life is at least somewhat thanks to the efforts, support, mentorship, love and encouragement of others. So is there someone that you want to dedicate your shoutout to?
My shoutout is to my brother, Nicholas Dolan, a passionate actor who will influence the world in his own purpose. He has endured many a conversation and night in which my soul was lost in converation, wandering in envy and judgment of thyself in pure negativity. In the seventeen years we’ve known each other, I’ve given him every chance to walk away and leave me to my own hurt and trauma, but never once did he consider the option. He’s been among the best of friends a human could hope to have – a human of Real Faith, empathy, love, understanding, and a way of enlightening the energy of whatever room he steps into. Among us humans, as he is integrating his own trauma and hurt from time, he is the very best you could hope to have in a brother/best friend.

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Image Credits
Book Cover Art by Bryce Raffle

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