We had the good fortune of connecting with Scotty Apex and we’ve shared our conversation below.
Hi Scotty, what role has risk played in your life or career?
Risk has played a very consistent role throughout my life and career. Whether I want to think about it or not, it is still presently there, no matter the circumstances. Most things in life involve at least some percentage of risk. It can be the thing that ultimately changes your life for the better if overcome, or it can be something quite damaging, but I do believe under a lot scenarios that the reward for taking a certain risk does outweigh the bad. This reminds me of how I was feeling when I moved to Los Angeles. I was so nervous when I made that decision. Everything that I had known growing up was in Indiana. My family, my friends, the expenses I knew how to cover, I was comfortable, but that comfort is what I wanted to force myself out of, because I knew if I threw myself into an uncomfortable situation in a location with more opportunity, there was a great chance of growth that would come from that. I still remember the feeling I had the morning of my departure, before getting in my car and giving out all the hugs to my family saying goodbye as I was about to go on this journey. I was so nauseous and anxious I actually was vomiting, and then I came out of the bathroom with a smile on my face like I wasn’t having a mental breakdown. The reason I was so anxious was because the constant self doubt and overthinking I was feeling overwhelmed by, my brain was so focused on all of the risk that this decision came with, like what if i go broke, or what if i do all this for no reason and never achieve what i am hoping to, what if i die driving there, what if i die while i’m there, every worst case scenario that the risk of this journey had, my thoughts were reminding me of, and I definitely could have let that break me and prevent me from that growth. I think that barrier that I was faced with right in that moment, is what prevents a lot of people from taking action towards something that will bring a lot of growth, and you’ll notice a lot of people that let that risk scare them away, will feel stuck and in the same place, repeating the same cycle of things on a annual basis. I didn’t want to look back. I wanted to take a risk in search of growth, because I knew in my mind that if this didn’t work out, I would just be right where I was, but at least I tried and could live with myself knowing I at least gave my dreams a chance. As I reflect back on that moment, since I’ve now lived in Los Angeles for two years, it’s funny to me to think what seemed like such a giant leap to me back then, now seems so small. That’s how I know I have grown and done exactly what I had planned to do. When you take risks and overcome them, you become wiser, stronger, your concept and lens of what is possible to achieve becomes wider and wider as you continue to grow. You start breaking the mold of what you have been told is ideal. It is a beautiful thing. It is very true what they say, with great risk comes great reward, and I think in this moment now, there are many more risks I know I will have to take if I want to continue to elevate my position, that desire to not look back to where I was is what I hope will continue to drive me to take those leaps.
Let’s talk shop? Tell us more about your career, what can you share with our community?
Throughout all of my music and art in general, I have tried to put a bridge that leads the listener directly into my world. I believe my purpose and existence on these platforms is to provide comfort, escape, and a place that people just feel understood. I know what certain artists and their music have done for me through some of my darkest moments, and since I developed that love and passion for sound in those times, I feel like my soul now has this calling to use my gifts to be there for people the same way my favorite artists were there for me.
I think I am most proud of the continuous evolution I have been able to make, and I credit that to the people around me as well. With each new era of time, each new creation or idea, the frequency of quality continues to raise, the vulnerability becomes greater, the execution of emotion communicated in each idea becomes more clear, and that’s all I could ever ask for as a creative. For the emotions and stories I want to be felt by the listener to become more and more vivid. I am very excited for the next concept I have been working on to come to surface, I am excited as well as hopeful to see the audience tapped into my sound continue to grow as I one day hope to have a large community of people that understand this message I am giving, and want to be there for each other.
I still have a long way to go, but I am thankful for where I am currently. It did not come easy at all. Every so often, I still face some of the same challenges as before, I just have a stronger perception of my ability to overcome certain things like self doubt, anxiety, getting depressed over a variety of inevitable factors throughout life, but I still have a lot of room to learn and grow. There’s always a higher frequency to reach. It has been difficult to play this game that I play with the pure heart that I have. A lot of people want to squeeze anything they can from me, and since I have the heart I have, it’s easy for me to want to give until I have nothing left. Even then, I will still want to give more, but I have learned to place more boundaries and that has helped my mental health a lot. To achieve what I have, I think I have to credit it to just having love and passion for music, because that love is what has been the motivating factor to push me through the tough moments where things seem quiet, everyone seems distant, and the goals seem far away. Whatever you do, beyond just music or anything creative, you have to truly love it. Love more, love often, love and light will come in the dark.
If I had a mic to the audience of the entire world, I would want them to know that anything is possible, no matter the circumstances. If you’re a kid in a small midwest town wanting to become a successful business man in a big city, you can do it. If you’re lost and don’t quite know who you are yet, give yourself time to find your passions and learn about yourself, it will be okay in the end. If there are all these voices in your head telling you that you are not enough, you are valued, you have a purpose and are meant to be here, keep going, you are needed in this lifetime and love will find its way to you. Whatever the circumstance, develop a plan, be open minded, take risks, don’t intentionally hurt anyone along the way, and love more. It will not always be easy, but it will be possible. Give yourself the chance to live the way you dream. I am here as a supporter of you, I am a open reflection of all that I have been through, experienced, and learned. I hope you find understanding in comfort through my scars, we can all turn our pain into beautiful growth.
If you had a friend visiting you, what are some of the local spots you’d want to take them around to?
I have had the opportunity to actually do this with a couple friends and family members throughout my time of living in LA.
Food spots we are definitely hitting throughout the week are going to be: Dave’s Hot Chicken (which is my favorite chicken spot), Monty’s (for my vegan people out there), Carney’s (i’m a fan of the atmosphere), Tacos El Venado (which is the most fire spot for that authentic burrito, taco, quesadilla done the right way), Bubba Gump’s, Shake Shack (because of course we have to), and Jamba Juice.
Places to go see: We are going to go to Venice Beach during the day, and Santa Monica Pier at Night time to see the lights. Take a day to go to Switzer Falls in Angeles National Forest, and might hang at the Griffith Observatory. The beaches along Malibu are always a good time if you bring a group of friends. If you’re a fan of Funko Pop’s the Funko store in Hollywood is pretty cool. I might go to the Grove and then hit FairFax/Melrose specifically on the weekend for the fashion pop ups. We are going to play bowling somewhere, there are plenty of spots for you to lose to me at, maybe Highland Park bowling. We will also be playing basketball at any of the numerous courts around the East LA area, where you can also lose to me at.
Other than that, we are going to hanging out at the house with me and my friends, playing video games, making music, watching a movie or something, I am mostly a home body haha.
Shoutout is all about shouting out others who you feel deserve additional recognition and exposure. Who would you like to shoutout?
I would not be who I am today without the support of my close friends and family. I am very thankful for my family. I love my three little sisters so much.
The support I have through music has been such an amazing experience, thankful for people like PnkBlnkt that think selflessly to help others. Working closely with VVDSOUND has been an honor. My close friend Adrian Dey (out in Toronto) has always been there for me. Tyrus Jones has been a great friend. Bone Collector helped me get my first placements and I am beyond thankful for that. Kami Osha has been extremely reliable to work with over the years and sort of a cheat code to creativity. Tre Capital has provided me with a lot of positive energy. Kennyhoopla has been an inspiration and to see his growth has been amazing to witness., every so often he’ll check in and say something valuable that I take as motivation to keep striving forward. There is so many more to name, and I could name an entire book of people that I am thankful for, so for the sake of keeping this short and sweet, I am very grateful for all of my friends, peers, coworkers, family, anyone that supports me, all of you are the reason I continue moving forward.
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